To change the world I must play a part both loved and hated; actors love it and the audience hates it.
But in the world that is not a stage and everyone the audience there will only be hate.
I do not even know if there are other players who will rally to my cry or if the other players are Brutus.
There is but one way a singular person can change how the world sees and acts now.
The last time one came into power it was devastating but necessary to change the thinking of the world.
If only to change the world for a few decades it is still change for the better.
But that time the world changer did not know what he would accomplish.
How much worse shall it be when someone who does get a hold of the world?
That person may well end up being me.
You will have no one to save you.
Your heroes are dead.
You killed them.
What kind of world is it when to save the world you must play the villains part?
I have spent the remainder of my semester away from the theater as if it were a viral plague that could kill me. Anytime I near it now with intention to accomplish anything there I feel despair and drained before I have even attempted to do anything.
I know there was a time when I adored the Theater and what it stood for. But now all that is left is empty and hollow motions of nothingness.
How could it have come to this? From love and passion to draining and unfulfilling.
I hate to be there now. Dread to go close to it.
Where did the joy go?
Where did the fulfillment go?
When did those lofty ideas of community turn to false promises and dust.
Whats the point anymore?
Why start loving something and then so suddenly it creates nothing but a hollow shell in return?
What is wrong?
Is it me?
Is it them?
Is it nothing at all?
When you wake up and just don't care what people expect you to do.
When you just want to tell the world to go to hell
When you decide you've had enough of the stupidity of your professors or co workers or peers
When all you want to do is sleep
When you want to close your eye to make it all go away
When you just don't give a damn about things and just want a day to yourself without people bothering you.
When all you want is a burger and fries and nothing fancy
When all you want is a glass of wine or a bottle of beer
When all you want is to be held in someone's arms.
When all you want to do is take a long hot bath
There are days like this
do not want
do NOT want
Humans are icky and should leave me alone because they are stupid and false and I'd rather take my chances with the Fae.
It is to chicken as to cow and so follow the tree through the north pole.
Wine that flows, floweth not far, and wine that flows not at all, is not wine.
A duck on the head is worth more than a weasel in your pants.
May this wisdom speak to you. Good night ^_^
From the French perspective (duh) and looked to see if France was at fault for starting this war like Germany had accused them of doing.
We concluded that the answer was France could have done more to prevent the outbreak of war (but people made some stupid choices like always) but they did not start the war. Also if one went by the popular opinion of the people of France at that time most were resigned to the fact they were at was but not foaming at the mouth to get back at Germany for the Franco-Prussian war insults.
Germany on the other hand, declared war on France first.
So Germany was more guilty for involving France in the "Great War" than France's alliance to Russia .
WWI was started because a Serbian nationalist assassinated the Archduke Franz Ferdinand of Austria. Since the Austria-Hungarian empire was RIGHT NEXT TO Serbia they were a little bit more than miffed. And there was a whole lot more back story to the start of WWI than we went over today but suffice to say it was all European Empire(s) related.
What really suked about WWI was trench warfare and bad strategics/tactics. If people had some smarter commanders things might have ended up differently. Maybe there wouldn't have been as many casualties. But there is a whole host of maybes one could suppose.
It has been suggested that ancient Greek drama was a form of storytelling, communal therapy, and ritual reintegration for combat veterans by combat veterans. Sophocles himself was a general. At the time Aeschylus wrote and produced his famous Oresteia, Athens was at war on six fronts. The audiences for whom these plays were performed were undoubtedly comprised of citizen-soldiers. Also, the performers themselves were most likely veterans or cadets. Seen through this lens, ancient Greek drama appears to have become elaborate ritual aimed at helping combat veterans return to civilian life after deployments during a century that saw 80 years of war.
Ajax tells the story of a fierce warrior who slips into a depression near the end of The Trojan War, attempts to murder his commanding officers, fails, and takes his own life. It is also the story of how his wife and troops attempt to intervene before it's too late. Philoctetes is a psychologically complex tragedy about a famous Greek warrior who is marooned on a deserted island by his army after contracting a horrifying and debilitating illness.
Plays like Sophocles' Ajax and Philoctetes read like textbook descriptions of wounded warriors, struggling under the weight of psychological and physical injuries to maintain their dignity, identity, and honor. Given this context, it seemed natural that military audiences today might have something to teach us about the impulses behind these ancient stories. It also seemed like these ancient stories would have something important and relevant to say to military audiences.
Over the past year, we have enjoyed the privilege of working with film and stage actors such as Paul Giamatti, Terrence Howard, David Strathairn, Michael Ealy, Lili Taylor, Jesse Eisenberg, Bill Camp, Elizabeth Marvel, Jay O. Sanders, Isiah Whitlock, Jr., Gloria Reuben, Jeffrey Wright, Tamara Tunie and Charles S. Dutton in readings of Ajax and Philoctetes for the U.S. Marine Corps, West Point cadets, homeless veterans, Army bases, and the Department of Defense. Each reading has been followed by a town hall style audience discussion, which has been facilitated with the help of military community members. These have been arresting, emotionally-charged events, in which service members have spoken openly about their experiences in combat and at home. Based on the success of the project, Theater of War Productions has recently been awarded a contract with the Defense Centers of Excellence for Psychological Health and Traumatic Brain Injury (DCoE) and will be presenting 100 performances for military audiences nationwide at military sites, suicide prevention conferences, service academies, war colleges, and medical schools. We look forward to learning from the military audiences, veterans, and their caregivers and families about what these plays actually mean and why they were written.
I am missing something from my childhood....where did they all go? Will it come back? Can I go back? Is flying so difficult now that I am older? Trapped. Trapped. Trapped. Trapped Trapped. Grounded. Stuck. Sick. Dying. Dead.
because I hate the human race as a collective at this point. Yes there are some decent people out there but if you read this and think to yourself "I'm a decent person" you are probably one of the people I would first have eradicated for blatant delusions of goodness.
If perhaps you admitted to yourself you aren't perfect then I'd probably leave you be. People who go around untouched because they act like they have some sort of charmed life should be taken out and shot and NOT left to be admired by others because behind the facade of perfection is an evil that causes the complacency of evils beyond our ken.
The only people I do not hate at this point are my BIOLOGICAL parents, My adopted grandparents, my godmother, and the few people on campus who are still my friends.
I have just experience Hell in its most earthly form. Its not made of fire and brimstone. It is made in the modern theater setting at my college. This hell has a name and it is called Q 2 Q. I wish to die now. Unfortunatly I am too tired to actually seek out fast acting poisons to put me out of my misery. (and No I'm not being dramatic. I feel this horrible for good reason). I do not really care to go over how it was so horrible. Just accept that it was and I don't want to talk about it or experience it ever again in my life.
"Good morning. In less than an hour, aircraft from here will join others from around the world. And you will be launching the largest aerial battle in this history of mankind.
Mankind -- that word should have new meaning for all of us today.
We can't be consumed by our petty differences anymore.
We will be united in our common interests.
Perhaps its fate that today is the 4th of July, and you will once again be fighting for our freedom, not from tyranny, oppression, or persecution -- but from annihilation.
We're fighting for our right to live, to exist.
And should we win the day, the 4th of July will no longer be known as an American holiday, but as the day when the world declared in one voice:
"We will not go quietly into the night!
We will not vanish without a fight!
We're going to live on!
We're going to survive!"
Today, we celebrate our Independence Day!"
If it actually takes a threat of worldwide human annihilation to get other people to recognize that we are all one race on one planet, then may the creatures willing to eradicate the human race try to.
I'm tired of the shit that humans do to each other or even accuse each other of.
I'm tired of people being antagonistic towards people who think the earth was created by an intelligent designer instead of evolution and who knows what started it. There is "proof" for both and it depends on how one interprets the data. Until I finally finish my time machine none of us will know for certain.
I'm tired of this stupid idea of hate crime legislation. First off, we were founded as a nation with the freedom of speech, a freedom of ideas, a freedom to have our own opinions and a freedom OF religion (not 'from' you illiterate people). As long as no one is physically hurting/harming another human being each person should have the right to believe what they want to and have their own opinions. The hate legislation will basically deny everyone their right to an opinion and the right to express it.
Those who would give up essential liberty to purchase a little temporary safety deserve neither liberty nor safety.
Benjamin Franklin (1706 - 1790), Historical Review of Pennsylvania, 1759
The First Amendment is often inconvenient. But that is besides the point. Inconvenience does not absolve the government of its obligation to tolerate speech.
Justice Anthony Kennedy (1936 - )
It is by the goodness of God that in our country we have those three unspeakably precious things: freedom of speech, freedom of conscience, and the prudence never to practice either of them.
Mark Twain (1835 - 1910), Following the Equator
I would rather be exposed to the inconveniences attending too much liberty than to those attending too small a degree of it.
Thomas Jefferson (1743 - 1826), to Archibald Stuart, 1791
My definition of a free society is a society where it is safe to be unpopular.
Adlai E. Stevenson Jr. (1900 - 1965), Speech in Detroit, 7 Oct. 1952
Don't want to walk upon the water
Don't want to look across the waves
Instead of seeing hills of water
I just see markers on their graves
But in the fading of a season
To look across an empty sky
For a forgotten childhood reason
To once more wish that you could
Close your eyes and just believe again
There's a God does he remember when
We were young and faith was not pretend
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
And in the night he sees the ocean
Carve its thoughts upon the shore
For in the way it was created
It can do this and nothing more
And every message it would leave him
The next wave carefully erased
As the tears that passed between them
Were so real that you could
Close your eyes and just believe again
There's a God and he remembers when
We were young and faith was not pretend
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
And all at once the waves were getting
Higher
And as they crashed I thought I heard them say
There'd be a time when men would all be wiser
When everyone, everyone,
Yes everyone is
Saved.
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Chills man. Chills.
When you school wastes your time by giving you "Weekly Influenza Updates" telling you how many people have the flu but never which variety.
Quite frankly I don't give a carp about how many people have the flu on campus. It is an illness, it passes with proper rest and care.
Sure college is a petri dish for disease. But if you have an immune system then its not gonna be so bad. However, for those unfortunate to not have a good immune system (like my 'daughter') its hard to stay healthy.
But getting weekly updates about something that 1)causes panic among the hypochondriacs and 2) most of us don't give a crap about, is a waste of time and inbox space.
I think this whole flu thing has gotten WAY out of hand in general. Yes the flu can kill. Yes the newer strains may be more dangerous. But if people actually took care of themselves the way they were supposed to it wouldn't be so bad.
Jesus
What's the reason
For these scars that will never heal
Hearts that no longer feel
Eyes that can no longer see
Jesus
What's the reason
For this child that will not survive
With all her dreams inside
Could she mean nothing to thee
And jesus please tell me if you can recall
Just where you were when this sparrow did fall
Jesus
What's the reason
Every tear isn't weighed the same
Could you have died in vain
If we have short memories
And jesus would you then come down from your cross
Return every nail and say we are lost
And in the dark we seek your silent company
For each hope that arrives and fades from memory
Still after all this time our loss you won't concede
For in the dead of night the rumor is
Your hands they still bleed
Still bleed
Still bleed
Still bleed
Jesus
It would seem then
That somehow you still trust
You have more faith than us
Perhaps that is how it should be
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It's also how some of my poetry goes. Its nice to find a great metal band you can agree with.
If you think I'm wrong that's your opinion. Keep it to yourself. You probably have no idea as to what I am really talking about. And if you do then you understand my meaning.
In other news I really like Runes. Very pretty. Also considered satanic back during the Reagan era or something...(a random fact from my professor this morning). To which I laughed and replied "Wow that's dumb." Evidently I would be spending much time in the principals office for even liking runes then. Silly superstitious people.
Longer Rant Later
I decided to do these three....for now.....
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And Warious said "let there be Doom," and there was, and it was doomed. ~Cy Raxx Skywalker of ME:I.
"Knowledge comes from finding the answers, yes, but understanding what the answers mean is what brings wisdom. Men who didn’t understand the difference have been the ruin of some of the world’s greatest civilizations." ~ Lionel Luthor
"I believe the psychological term for refusing to accept the inevitable is denial. And no amount of probing can uncover emotional issues that don't exist." ~ Lex Luthor
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Two different Luthor's. Same family. Guess what my newly favorited TV series is?
(an explanation: If I feel a particular song embodies my overall thoughts [either for the whole day, more than a day or some thing more brief but important to me] I will post it here...if I remember. I do not own any of these songs and/or poetry that may appear during song of the day posts unless I specify that I did write it)
Title: Where I Want to Be
(and if you don't know where this is from oh well ^_^ Its also a guessing game courtesy of the brilliant composers lyricists and singers who make/sing good songs)
Who needs a dream?
Who needs ambition?
Who'd be the fool
In my position?
Once I had dreams
Now they're obsessions
Hopes became needs
Lovers possessions
Then they move in
Oh so discreetly
Slowly at first
Smiling too sweetly
I opened doors
They walked right through them
Called me their friend
I hardly knew them
Now I'm where I want to be and who I want to be and doing what I
always said I would and yet I feel I haven't won at all
Running for my life and never looking back in case there's
someone
right behind to shoot me down and say he always knew I'd fall.
When the crazy wheel slows down
Where will I be? Back where I started.
Don't get me wrong
I'm not complaining
Times have been good
Fast, entertaining
But what's the point
If I'm concealing
Not only love
All other feeling.
Now I'm where I want to be and who I want to be and doing what I
always said I would and yet I feel I haven't won at all
Running for my life and never looking back in case there's
someone right behind to shoot me down and say he always knew I'd fall
When the crazy wheel slows down
Where will I be? Back where I started.
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